One month. My family has lived our first month without my dad here, and we’re amazed at the overwhelming sense of absence and presence. The absence of a person so big to us that he’ll never be able to be replaced. And the presence of a God so real to us that we can never doubt Him.
Since there’s no night in Heaven, it’s still Dad’s first day. I still can’t wrap my head around that. We’ve always known he was smarter than us, but now he’s ever so much more enlightened. So many times during a day, I wonder–what is he doing right now? I’m here doing mundane and mortal things, while he’s experiencing the amazing.
You may be surprised that I haven’t visited his grave since the funeral. And that’s due to the fact that I’ve never once thought of him being there. He’s not. He’s far away from us at the moment, but he’s definitely not dead. His gravesite is such a sweet memorial to him, and located on his church property- his favorite place on earth. I’m thankful for that. But I’m more thankful for the peace that assures me that he’s not there.
It’s that peace that I call on when I get overwhelmed. When I think that I may have to live another whole lifetime until I see him again, or when I remember that he won’t be here for the “important” events, I have to stop. And I remind myself, and my mom, and my sister and brother that we can do this. We can live through today. Each morning when I wake up and have to remember that he’s not here now, I hear God telling me, “You can do it.” And I am.
And whatever you’re facing today, you can do it, too. Let me comfort you with the fact that I know what you’re going through. We’re not alone. Let’s remind each other to take it a day at a time. We can do today. Let’s figure out tomorrow tomorrow.
On this Pray for Me Monday, take the words of Matthew 6:34 and let them help you today:
“Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.”
If you have a specific prayer request, be sure to let me know, either here, on my Facebook page, or by private message! I’m praying for you!